Adulting...

Hey Guys, (Cue in the Harley Quinn Voice)

     I know, I know it's been a very long time since I've last updated!  I did mention that I wasn't good at this, right?  If not then...I think it's safe to say that you already know! 😊  Anyway, I've finally decided that this is my year!  I am finally gonna get it together!  The truth is, I am not getting any younger and I really want my life to finally begin you know.  I'm in my twenties and I haven't really explored anything.  So I'm done feeling sorry for myself and I'm gonna try! Even if it all goes to shit, I'm still gonna power through!  Truthfully, I stopped trying a few years ago because I was disappointed with myself... Lately, I've finally decided that I was being an idiot and that I have to get it together because the world doesn't stop for no one! (What a scary thought!)  So here's to powering through you guys!  Here's to finally fucking powering through!!! 🥂

-♥liz

My love letter...

     So lately, I've been thinking about how life could have taken a turn for me   (I don't mean like a successful one either.)  I am thinking more along the lines of Cinderella before she turns into Cinderella.  (Do you get me?)   So this is my love letter to those who have been there with me through it all!

Dear Loved ones,

    I never really took the time to thank you for all that you have done for me.  I understand that I may not be where I want to be in life, but because of you guys, I know I can get there.   I know that I can be very indecisive but one thing stands clear... I love you all and I really appreciate the support.  I know I still have a lot of growing to do,  a lot of failing (possibly), and a lot of successes (hopefully).   I am glad that the right people in my life exist because the reality is, I really don't know what I would do without you guys.  I hope that one day I can show the same kind of love you guys have shown me.  (At least, I hope I show that same kind of love now.) In the end, my life may not be as perfect to some, but to me... my life seems pretty spectacular!

Love,

liz

Music to my ears...

     So this little blog post is going to be a little different... (I mean when is it not...right?😜)  I want to bring forth to you guys the playlist of songs that are AMAZING!!  I mean they are beautifully written and the sound of each one is extraordinary.  Plus, these are the tracks of my life.  (Metaphorically speaking of course😏)  So let me know what you think and give them a listen.  You know sometimes, all it takes it the right song to totally eclipse your mood. 

     So happy listening to the playlist of my life! 😎

-❤liz

Lord Huron- When we met
Lord Huron-Wait by the River
Codi- Don't you cry for me
Codi- Nobody opened the door
Dean Lewis- Waves (Acoustic Version)
M83-Wait
Staind- Zoe Jane
Staind- Everything Changes
Staind-Fade
Staind-Epiphany
Coldplay- Fix You
Coldplay- Yellow
Coldplay- O
Coldyplay- Always in my Head
Coldplay- Amazing day
Coldplay Hymn for the Weekend
The Cure- In Between days
The Cure- Friday I'm in Love
The Cure- Just Like heaven
The Cure- Pictures of You
Land Del Rey- Shades of Cool
Lana Del Rey- Florida Kilos
Lana Del Rey- Burning Desire
Lana Del Rey-High by the Beach
Lana Del Rey-Love
Lana Dey Rey- Blue Jeans
Lana Dey Rey- Video Games
Florence and the Machine- Shake it out
Florence and the Machine- You've got the Love
Florence and the Machine- Ship to wreck

Let's get real...

     So I'm just going to jump right into it and start writing what I feel.  I know this may not be the best outlet to speak truths, but I want to speak my truth.  Sometimes I fell like life is this really big thing that I don't know how to deal with yet.  You know like the responsibilities of being you and being an adult.  That's a really hard thing to grasp when you kinda don't know who you are yet.  I guess that is why so many people focus on jobs, school, and other materialistic things to take the focus off of them.  When all of that is taken away, do you know who are you? Are you still the same person or are you unsure?  Can you define who you are without those things?  ( I mean... 😱) 

    I guess that's what I am trying to figure out about me first...  It's like you want to run but you can only walk.  I hope I making some sense because these are the things I've been thinking about lately. I don't really care about the past anymore.  I am just concerned about where I am going from here.  

     So as I sit contemplating the question of what's next, while also listening to Lord Huron on Pandora, I hope you do the same.  I also hope we figure this shit out too, because it's us against the world!  🌎 

-❤liz

Crickets??

Hi guys!!!  How's it going?? (<--Harley Quinn voice)❤♠💓

Man oh man... It has been quite a long time!  Who know's if you guys are still out there reading this,  but I just wanted to say maybe I'll start this up again??  Ya know...fingers crossed!! 🤞

Well I just wanted to say I have a pretty good job now and I am sorta getting it together.  I think I maybe on to something future wise.  I don't really want to say anything yet in case things don't go accordingly!  Ya know... Life has a way to kick me in the ass sometimes, but ya know you live and ya learn! So here's to us that are trying our best to make the best of it! Hopefully things pan out for all of us!  👌

So until next time...
-liz

P.S. Anything you want me to talk about??

Stuck..

     Hey guys, how's it going??😋  I know, I know, it has been quite a while.  To be fair, life has definitely thrown me some curve balls lately, and today I decided to talk about getting stuck in life.

      By getting stuck I mean, where you are in school, work, or simply whatever kind of stuck you are in.  So long story short, I've been feeling a little stuck.  I imagined by the age of 24 I'd have my bachelors, have a pretty decent job, perhaps be living with a roommate, and maybe even have a pretty awesome boyfriend. (Wink! Wink! A girl can hope!😊)  As of right now none of those things have come true yet, and it never really dawned on me before, until I logged on to Facebook.  Oh yes, the dreadful times of Facebook... You know the place?  Where your use to be high school friends are living it up while you still haven't figured it out yet.  Yeah, that is the place I am referring to.  I use to feel very negative and insecure about myself when I'd log on.  It wasn't that I was jealous or wasn't happy for them it was just that I didn't have any exciting news to share about me.  I felt like I had nothing to show for my life so far.  (Well I did get my associates... TBH 😏)  So now what you may ask... Honestly, I have no fucking idea, but I will get there.  It has taken me sometime to realize that it takes longer for some people to be in the place they want to be.  Everyone has their own pace, their own journey, and pretty much their own everything!  The truth is I realized that I had to stop comparing myself to others because my journey is the only thing that should matter to me. (No offence! 😏)

     In short, I just need to take a breather and figure out what my next step is.  Hopefully I pick the one that takes me to where I want to be.  I hope you guys know that life is not easy and it gets difficult, but with the right mindset I am pretty sure we will make it! (However long it takes!! 😅)

So until next time...

-liz

P.S. When did emojis appear on this place!! I love it!! 😁🦄

New year...

     Now is a start to a whole new year... As you may know my life is currently set on pause for a while.  However some good memories were hatched out of 2016 and for that I am extremely grateful.  So what now you may ask, what will I do this year that is different from last... I honestly don't know.   However, I sure hope that this year is better than last.  That's all we can really hope for, right?  So with that in  mind, I shall leave you guys with this quote (by a stranger out in the universe) I found a couple years ago on a M83 music video.  It honestly spoke volumes... perhaps it will give you guys some clarity on a start to a new year.

"So I'm here, on this earth, in a universe filled with at least 100 billion galaxies.  With those galaxies are an unknowable number of stars.  Orbiting those stars are even more planets.  We find ourselves alive.  Carbon based life forms with the ability to create.  Conscious beings living out the bittersweet thing we call life. Seventeen years old, commenting on a music video that touched my heart.  Music. Art. Philosophy. Science. Everything we've created.  We ask why. So many questions.  The truth is the answers aren't important.  The answers are likely to leave us disappointed.  Unfulfilled. The beauty of it all is that we are able to ask why.  Now go, love somebody, cherish the time you have left. Life is precious.  YOU'RE PRECIOUS!  It's almost impossible to completely grasp this. Find comfort in not knowing. It's the only way. And if you think know, think again. All of this, I'm communicating with you is because of language. Something we created. It's magnificent. Ignore the grammatical errors. They don't matter. What matters is the fact that there is such a thing as grammatical errors. Long story short, there is no answer to the question, "Why is there something rather than nothing?" Please, I'm begging you. Push through the hard times. Cherish the fact that the hard times exist. Appreciate your existence. There will be a time when no one is left to appreciate all of man kinds accomplishments. So don't waste another minute.  Much love. -Something"

Until next time...
liz